From the boughs finds an edge...

Tonight I sit up here on this ledge looking out on the city below. We just got in and I have to say I miss this. Constant movement. Ever flow. You can taste life from these heights and look down below knowing that in life you've earned these things. It is up here you get the good winds that never seem to cease blowing past, and that carry with them the smells and sounds of my people below.

I notice something about life lately. The little unspoken rules we all share. Out nightlife for instance. It is like long ago some group of men (because long ago all groups were surely men and white LOL) and decided sunlight meant fun and family safety while after dark it was okay within the confines of the law to let your freak flag fly.

While doing my normal daily observations I found myself thrust upon the first group while appearing to be part of the second. What was I to do as I had surely from my music, urban garb, and saunter ruined what was to be a perfectly peaceful morning for Tom and Susan Local. They quickly surveyed their surroundings and me seeing their panic like a couple wild deer looking for escape I gladly smiled and paused so they could pass by. The entire exchange seemed like eons but was mearly minutes.

So here I stand on this balcony, like a king unto my brethren...more a casual observer with a lofty and pleasing perch. I stand here to let the night touch it and take it all away. This is like a shower to wash away the day. A soft whisper that reminds us of a lover's secret. But mostly just my tower for which I evade and become something new. Sweet dreams world. My epoch just kicked in again.

The Great American Dust Off

A face like I'm 20

Body like I'm 50

Soul like infinity

But that's all okay

Just a little more vocal

A little more postal

Just a tad more local

And I like it this way

I got a way with feelings

But no way with women

And a way to make millions

If I only get my break

Just another shaky plan

A push to deal with the man

Hustlin' just to keep in bread

Sunken face ain't just lack a steak

So it may be have you hold you

Or just get to know you

Just gotta get back to ignoring you

Cause you all just too much

Stroll the notes nightly

I'd like to get by kindly

Got to quiet the mind see

So its light I long to touch

The Hole Goes Bigger Than My Heart

On the other end of hurt

I've got to realize

You've closed that door

And seeing you walk away

Was the worst thing

Can't own all the sadness

Can't drown ache away

Another day cold

Longing for reason

Just to say good morning

Hammered my heart bare

Just covering weakness

Of a little boy

Needing a little girl

Maybe then I'll beat this

So here's my reality

A cup of tea to warm me

Aching fingers to write me

Haunted soul to share me

Keep breathing...we'll see

Sandcastles

Think I'll just hang head low

It is all I've got anyway

No place for faith of any kind

Hope has long gone away

To awaken this turmoil of dysfunction

My mind that has gone astray

Becoming more than simple struggle

Becoming the walls I hide in

The reasoning is all so immediate

My heart just can't handle the pain

Of another hope for a little joy

Ends up just walkin' in the rain

So I'll assemble this castle again carefully

With each purposed stone I'll find

A pleasant safe place for shelter

For this little boys heart and mind

The Violent Only Show

Would blood make it more real?

Is bleeding what you want?

Got plenty and seen it all before

Plenty to spare

Enough for it all to make sense

That this unencumbered chaos

Is a heart that just won't beat

So give away massive contusion

Let the fount flow forth

The only way you'll see this real

Is traction for a broken heart

Words That Make YOU Feel Better

How you doing?

Would you all just stop talking to me

How you doing?

I answered this all yesterday and will let you know when I've changed

How you doing?

how ya doin

how's things

are you okay

all with time

God has a plan

I don't know

can we just be friends

you are a great guy but...

remember Job

things just aren't working out

sorry but we've gone another route

lower your expectations

sometimes we have to just settle

dreams are for kids

time to grow up

sorry but your loan request has been denied

can't pay you right now but...

I'm family...I'm good for it

God has a plan

God has a plan

God has a plan

I Surrender

Too damn hard to be angry

I'm going on alone

To that same old place

I've grown to know as home

Where the noise is silent

And the presence small

I find the only thing I know

Exists behind walls

Well I've just about did it

Millions of times

But in the end I'm putting

Too much on the line

For it's all dream and want

The way I find escape

While love just remains out of reach

And these arms are just too tired to hold up anymore

I'm just picking up pieces...

Again With Feeling

If I fed you this fist

Would your lies stop long enough to taste it

Just asking

Because this all seems damned convienent

Lord knows it was my plan to get in the way

To stumble you

In your quest

To keep you in joy

While alone it stands at arms reach

Starting to star

In your own trick show

So take the stage

I'm off to other pastures

And better performances

And concessions to make me rise

Growing Ships

To feel the rush

Pressed teeth to sweat

As life pushes its way

Past eyes

Past mind

To that sweet glorious bliss

Watching lights

As they kiss skin

Even the roads

Seem in reach for caress

To keep this hold

Like the world

It is in love being

It gets inside

Deep to the soft

And wipes those black pains clean

And it waves

All creation's audience

To just love

In the steps

When it comes time to breathe in

Helps to face

Skin stretched too thin

For a bordered awakening

This can be bliss

Or it is known

Milky

Pray for me world

Pray for the husk

For the wind blown leaf

Faded cold with age

For soft is felt sudden

Through you

And that blistering stare

Pray for anger

Pray for passion

And justice and love

That these cuts

Don't cut so deep

That the splinter of light I see through the window

That window

Undulating

Sweet like grazed lips

Bled passion awakened

With you

Its not just

This