For real this time...

It is very little time before I leave for as much as 3 months this year. I'm doing my summer job and this year I have to be honest: I would rather stay. There is one reason in particular but I've decided this maybe being my last blog for a while I would share more of what is going on in my life.

Over these last 5 months I've been working an internship here in town. I love this job. I love the people I work for, I love the work (video), and I love that it is helping me realize that after years of fighting it Bend is where I belong. I've had the honor of working with people from all walks of life in Central Oregon and the Northwest since starting and this is something I could see turn into a real career. And in November it just might as the internship will be over and we've talked about me coming on as a full employee of the company. I couldn't be more excited to work for Matt and Pinnacle.

In this time I'm lost and hurt a lot too. Recently one of the best friends I could have had seems to have walked away. With that and losing Heather this year (with her suicide) this was looking to be an all-time winner in the worst year I could possibly have. Relationships mean a lot to me and even though my words hurt them sometimes my heart is in it to keep things going and keep them strong. With this and my health having ups and downs, which is nothing new, I could just write this all off.

But somethings have happened. I've met some great friends that even though we don't like or do that same things, we have a solid relationship not based on similar interests but on good people spending time with good people. I've also become acquainted with someone that is becoming to mean quite a lot in my life. This person has been the one thing that has held me together and made me feel sane...and my face hurt from laughing and smiling so much. In all they've been God's gift to me this year and I'm much better for them being around. One of my best friends without a doubt. And that is all I'm going to say on that now.

Needless to say I'm going to miss you all. Other good things to report: I've lost 65 lbs since last June. I'm sober almost 8 years now which I'm really excited about. I love Apple and have drank the Kool-aid. And lastly...well...I'm going to miss you all. I'll be sure to write as soon as I get back. And until then...know I love most of ya. And the ones I don't...well...there's always when I return. LOL

Much Love

Jack