Tough Road for Many

I'm saddened by and amazed at life right now. All at the same time I'm inundated with emotions. Sadness can be easily qualified and quantified. The suicide bombing this week by a young man barely old enough to understand the ideology he was standing for blew himself up in a wedding, a usual cause for joy and celebration, killing 40. Then this morning I'm watching the news to find out there is was a man I had seen several times around that committed suicide on the bus route I ride every day. I can't begin to explain why either of these are hitting me like they are, but I just know that I can't help but feel there is something inheritly wrong with who we are as humanity when these kinds of things become blurbs in our community and when children become instruments for hate.

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Amazed: I don't want to say too much more than I'm curious. Finding some things in places that would have been the last for me to look. It is in times like these that a smile comes to my face knowing that there are still things out there that quiet a chaotic heart. As most of you who know me know I'm just getting past a recent death in my life that hit me hard. It through off all my schedule, my life, and really derailed everything I was working to. But in came this shining beacon and no matter how you define it, it has been something I needed and something now expected. My face hurts almost every day because of this...well...lets be honest here...person. This she. Amazed: the gifts that God gives come from the most unlikely of places I suppose. I guess I should know that at this point.

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Off to work a couple more projects. Updates and hopefully links to all the work I've been doing soon. It is some incredible stuff and between that and some amazing bosses that remind me of my value daily I can say that no matter what the world is bringing I'm doing well. Life is not the mess it appears...okay...slightly. :)

J...