The need for commitment

I'm committed outwardly to moving on things, but the more I weigh what is being said about my life the more I'm realizing I need to stop listening to so many other people and just listen to myself. The truth is I've always known what I need, but most people will tell me it is wrong or that I need to jump through these million hoops to get it. That makes no sense. I see people that have their shit together not even half as much as I do getting married, having kids, living ideal lives, and yet I'm the one that still has to jump through hoops.

So instead I'm committing to what I am and what I've always been about: NO COMPROMISE.

Just a quick note but this is what is on my mind. Won't be sleeping...have no one to talk to...so I have to do something. Guess this is it. That means not feeling guilty because there are women that show interest (and men) but I'm just not feeling it, even if it means I remain single. The honest truth is if it is just cheap fucking for the rest of my life I would rather have that than settle. I believe what and do and the way I do and I've put a lot of work into getting here. I need to stick to that because my work to get opinions means I've already done more than most people. And I'm done saying lets meet in the middle on things. If things are wrong they are just wrong and they need to change. So out...won't be sleeping at all. I'm on fire. Just wish I had a outlet to share it in. Coos County is a pit.

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