Welcome to the New Year...Again

I'm a fan of avoiding cliche like the plague, but occasionally I get a wild hair up my ass and decide to follow the trend and get my voice out there. This one...well...a simple one. My resolutions for 2013:

1. To stop being so damned political. I need to take stock in the fact that something I say often is reason enough to let things go: most people aren't as intelligent and informed as I am. That isn't means for me to go on the warpath. It should be instead a place I take solace and pride because I've put enough value in developing my mind and opinions through reading, researching, and the occasional balanced debate. Having this information is good because it keeps me up to date and on topic. It can also be beneficial if I find myself in the position of ever having to deal with an honest political situation.
2. Use social media less. In this I'm already failing. I know what I need to do because I'm a person that can only keep to things given rigid structure. As soon as someone gives me slack my whole plan goes off the rails. I honestly check my Facebook, Twitter, and Google Reader way too many times during the day. What had worked prior was only at night before my shows came on. This can be problematic occasionally because sometimes my daily duties get in the way, but guess what...I don't have to check it every day despite what my brain tells me. The least amount of time spent on social networking (which I know I do more because where I'm at currently I have no social group at all) the better I always feel. Every time I leave for a job I come back refreshed because the urgency of social media hasn't encapsulated my whole day.
3. Write. Like right now. Even if it is just my blog I need to commit to writing at least something of substance once a week, instead of spreading myself thin with meaningless ranting comments and Twitter posts. I can write. I'm quite good at it when I apply myself. I put nothing out into the world that I don't make a conscious decision to do so, so I need to stop fooling myself and thinking that my tech identity is adding anything to the conversation. I've been published and I need to get brave enough again to get rejected a few more times so that one day I might see my name in "print" again.
4. Don't beat myself up for not meeting my goals. I do this all too much. The world has done enough of that to me and everyone else. If I have several goals out there and only meet a few, I should just applaud the fact that I committed to some things and got them done, let go of the ones that have become too unattainable, and refocus on those that I still think have some merit like...
5. I want to learn how to speak Spanish. Mostly because of how it will look on a resume. At this point of got all the education credentials I need I think. There are some minor skills that would be good for me to add to the list of ones I've spent years honing, and learning a new language puts me in a class well above the rest of most listed applicants. And I'm thinking why stop there but lets start with Spanish.
6. Commit to using the CS5 books I've already got to strengthen my skills in graphic design work. I loved doing graphic design work. I would literally sit for hours at work just tinkering with settings and placement. Now that news versions of the software have come out I've given up on something I think I could be quite good at in an industry where there is a glut of untalented individuals passing themselves off as professionals. 
7. Start making plans for the next year. I've committed to taking off at least until my birthday this following year anything that would remotely resemble adult life and with good reason. These last 4 years have been hell. I've lost more people than I care to mention, killed some relationships that were dear to me due to my inability of being anything but a wounded animal, and burned quite a few bridges in all aspects in life I'm sure. All that said, I really do want to get back into the maw of it all. I'm going to take the time I have to heal. This is a safe place for me that I've been told is always here, so I know I have a base to run back to. It now just comes down to killing the irrational fear of getting hurt any more. Hurt comes with life. Sure I had a lot of it. But I have intelligence, skill, I've survived cancer 3 times, hep c, drug addiction, failed relationships, lost over 200 lbs, and lived through poisonous work environments (not Matt...he's awesome). This next year is all about stepping back out again and getting my footing.
8. Commit to making the transition from constantly ingesting empty media. This means trying to stop watching so much tv, Hollywood movies, and reading mostly superhero comics. I've made the move to the last part already in some ways though I still need to thin the flock of spandex heroes I'm reading. It is all adolescent fantasy driven by media moguls. It can't all be healthy. And while it is great to smoke a jay and watch "dick-n-fart" comedies or action flicks, I need to balance those out with good film that really gets me excited again about the types of things that can be done behind a camera. As for tv...it is the recepticle for most of the world's trash. All this reality tv, sporting events, and hours upon hours of true to life drama series can eat up ones life and all of a person's imagination. And the news is all lies. I know it. Everyone should know it. They paint the picture the advertisers and network execs want you to believe. Tv is just an endless producer of shit.

Well I think that will do for now. See...I am like everyone else. Maybe a little more crazy but well...we are all a little crazy. I just wear mine on my sleeve. Peace to ya all in the new year. If I've offended you in the past year I'll do my best not to do that too much this year. It is afterall part of the nature of who I am. The world will always need those individuals that can't help but occasionally rock the boat. Even if at times it appears I'm turning the fucker over, and drowning everyone. lol Much love to you all. OUT.